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The feeling of los

Losing. Someone ....it's. Painful and u dont quite know what to do with yourself regardless of how u lost them well i dont have a solution to this problem...i dont think there ever will be because sometimes...u need pain u need los because with out pain you will always be happy at first sounds great....but u lose sense of what happy truly feels like ..u go numb and u can't help it ..that becomes one of the worst pains u will ever Feel because the u on the inside is screaming for help but...on the outside u seem happy and yes at the moment that pain of los hurts ...well be happy your feeling anything at all

can I tell you tell you a terrible thing slow so slow I fell in love but don't fall in love because life can do terrible things this is a gospel for the broken if you love me let me go falling out of love is so easy for one of the to party so if you love me let me go so long since I herd your voice don't worry about me I'll be fine but but what you do to me that Made me love you but its wasn't you it's me that's what you mad me think why did you do this to me when you have no clue what you do to me are you ready to let go its time to say I don't give a fuck but you can't get over how much you love someone and thay never felt the same way you do so why be in some shit relationship you never want any part of in the beginning for that I can't say because I had the broken bitter and of what was a sweet release to you always thinking of how you always want what you want and what you want isn't me so blame it on me or my a.d.d but you are running out of excuses to blame me for the fact you dropped me over Facebook well I guess it fits for a coward like you to never take responsibility for any thing you do why am I so upset well I don't think it's that complicated but for it will be so let me explain your a selfish inconsiderate immature kid that when she can't get her way throws a fit and a tantrum until she gets it I get it you had a hard time getting to where you are but so have I and that doesn't excuse what you are or act like otherwise you will always be sad lonely second best in your own mind and that is so sad to think that you are so helpless in your life every thing seem so perfect at first but then you changed and I couldn't take it anymore from now on I know I can do better than you so now I am going to keep my hopes up high and my head down low. Because if it's. One thing I learned from what ever the hell we had its I will never fall in love again because I always feel like shit where I shouldn't it was all your fault we didn't work so if your upset its with your self because I wanted this to work you were finding a way out

love fucking sucks

this is just another sitch that love ends faster and harder then you want and you know it hurts but your only thinking about it because it hurts that's just for now tho so be for you think its never going to end it will and its as fast as you fell in your going to get over it and you will love that the one that you loved is gone because when you find some one new you can for get
 every thing you felt be for for the one that broke your hart

a short story

a man walks to the store one day and on his way there he fells some one watching him his first reaction was walk faster but it did-int work he was closing in and fast so he started running as fast as he could he tripped and  his nee landed on a broken piece of glass  from a near by broken bottle his leg now out of use he was left  with  no choice but to ........._ for more share like 1+ this and ill finish it and check out my you tube and sub to me by: JOKU CARTAGENA
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i found love but is the happiness hear for now or forever
if this is love or infatuation im so confused on whats real if any one knows help me 

IS THERE A GOD?

SOME SCIENTIST BELIEVE THAT THE STRING THEORY IS LINKED TO GOD BY IT'S 11 DIMENSIONS SOMETIMES COLLIDING INTO EACH OTHER BUT IN WITCH ONE OF THESE DIMENSIONS IS THE PLANE GOD IS LOCATED. NO ONE CAN BE SHORE BUT IT MUST BE CLOSE FOR IT TO COLLIDE WITH OURS. IF THIS THEORY IS TRUE THEN IT WOULD FIT ALMOST EVERY RELIGION  BECAUSE EACH  DIMENSION PLAYS A ROLE IN ALMOST EVERY ASPECT.  TO SET AN EXAMPLE SAY WE WEAR  IN THE MEDAL OF 11 DIMENSIONS AND THE ONE BEHIND US IS THE AFTERLIFE PLANE AND THE ONE IN FRONT OF US IS THE PLAN THE GOD IS IN AND WHEN THE TO DIMENSIONS COLLIDE GOD CAN WATCH EVERY THING BUT THIS DUSTIN MEAN THAT ALL OTHER RELIGIONS ARE WRONG ON THE CONTRARY IT SUGGEST THAT THAR COULD BE MORE THEN ONE GOD IN THIS DIMENSION THERE ACTUALLY COULD BE BILLIONS OF DIFFERENT GODS AT WORK FROM GREEK MYTHOLOGY AND JAPANESE MYTHOLOGY EVERY RELIGION & DEPENDING ON YOUR RELIGION YOUR GOD WILL PUT YOU IN THE DESIGNATED    DIMENSION THAT YOU BELONG IN SO IF YOU BELIEVE IN A SPECIFIC RELIGION AND SOME ONE YOU KNOW DUSTIN BELIEVE THE SAME RELIGION AND YOU KEEP ARGUE ABOUT IT THEN JUST SHOW THE THIS AND THEN YOU WILL ACCEPT THERE RELIGION AND THE CHOICE THEY MADE & THEY WILL DO THE SAME FOR YOU BECAUSE BOTH RELIGIONS ARE TRUE AND HAVE THERE OWN EVEN AND RESPECTABLE DIMENSION AND IN MY PERSONAL INCITE IS THAT THERE IS A GOD BUT NOT JUST ONE GOD BILLIONS OF DIFFERENT GODS SO IF YOUR STRESSING ABOUT WITCH RELIGION IS RIGHT DON'T STRESS ANY LONGER BECAUSE THEY ARE ALL RIGHT  

 IM A NERD

• I LIKE ANIME 
• I LIKE MANGA
• I LIKE MARVEL 
• I LIKE COMICS 
• I LIKE DC
• I LIKE GAMES 
• I LIKE COMPUTERS 
• I CAN FIX A PROBLEM WITH ALMOST ANY DEVICE
• I WATCH THE BIG BANG THEORY
• I KNOW WHAT THE BIG BANG THEORY IS 
• I LOVE VAMPIRES NEW AND CLASSIC 
• I WATCH TWILIGHT 
• I WATCH THE VAMPIRE DIERESES
• MY FAVORITE MARVEL HERO IS HULK 
• MY FAVORITE DC HERO IS BATMAN 
• MY FAVORITE ANIME HERO IS GOKU
• MY FAVORITE MOVIE IS THE AVENGERS 
• MY FAVORITE TV SHOW IS ARROW 
• MY FAVORITE  MANGA IS BLEACH
• MY FAVORITE  ANIME NARUTO
• MY FAVORITE  MUSIC IS ROCK 

SO YA IM A NERD AND  I LOVE IT EVERY MINUTE OF  BUT CAN YOU BLAME ME ?

MY MIND

SLOWLY FALLING IN TO A DEEP DEPRESSION AND STANDING IN THE RAIN TO THINGS I LIKE BUT OTHERS DEEM TROUBLESOME I DO WHAT I DO BECAUSE I CALMS ME NOT LIKE I HAVE SOME THING WRONG WITH ME WHEN I LOOK UP AT THE NIGHT SKY IM NOT TRYING TO SAY I HATE MY LIFE I DO THAT BECAUSE IM TAKING A STEP BACK AND SAYING THIS IS LIFE. WHEN YOU REALLY LOOK AT LIFE WHAT DO YOU SEE I SEE A TIME LIMIT TO SOME ONES LIFE GIVING THEM TIME  TO DO WHAT WITH IT TO THROW IT A WAY OVER SOMETHING STUPID LIKE A RELATIONSHIP OR A DRUG ADICCION ITS STUFF LIKE THAT THAT MAKES ME WOUNDER WHY ARE WE SO STUPID TO MAKE SOMETHING THAT KILLS US IN THE LONG RUN I DON'T KNOW ABOUT SOME OF YOU BUT I LIKE LIFE SO WHY WOULD I TRY AND DO SOMETHING THAT CAN KILL ME . 

LOVE?

LOVE SEEMS TO BE SO ELUSIVE TO ME. I TRY TO FIND LOVE BUT RIGHT NOW IT JUST SEEMS TO CONFUSING. MAYBE ITS JUST MY COLD HART CLOSING UP A GEN. I JUST DON'T KNOW NAY MORE.

TO LOVE.

 LOVE YOUR GONE BUT NOT FORGOTTEN. I LOVED YOU AND I KNOW YOU DIDN'T FEEL THE SAME. I SORRY I WASN'T THE MAN YOU NEEDED. I WAS SURPRISED YOU WERE WITH ME FOR SO LONG BECAUSE TO ME I WAS NEVER GOOD ENIF FOR YOU. AND I KNOW YOU KNEW I THOUGHT THAT. SO I FELT  LIKE I NEEDED TO LET GO OF YOU NOT FOR ME BUT FOR YOU AND I HOPE ONE DAY YOU CAN UNDER STAND THAT I ONLY DID WHAT HAD TO BE DONE. AND MY LOVE FOR YOU STILL BURNS LIKE ASSAD AND I WILL NEVER FOR GET YOU.

MY HART!

MY HART AS THE DAYS GO BY GETS COLDER AND NUM TO ALMOST EVERY THING. WITH OUT YOU HEAR WITH ME I FEEL LOST AND COLD AND CONFUSED. MY MIND IS GETTING FILLED WITH ANGER AND FRUSTRATION BUT CAN YOU BLAME ME I WAS SO HAPPY AND THEN IT WAS CUT SO SHORT BECAUSE MY HAPPINESS WAS YOU. NOW I KNOW THAT MY LOVE WAS APART OF ALL MY HAPPINESS THAT I WAS SO USE TO FOR SO LONG. BUT THAT WAS THEN AND THIS IS NOW ITS TIME I LET GO BECAUSE IF I HOLD ON FOR ANY LONGER I MIGHT LOSE EVERY THING I HOLD CLOSE TO ME AND EVERY ONE A LONG WITH IT AS WELL. GOOD BYE FORE EVER MY LOVE IT WOULD BE FOR THE BEST IF WE NEVER SEE ETCH OTHER A GEN.

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